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bryiarrose) wrote2003-03-21 03:18 pm
bryiarrose) wrote2003-03-21 03:18 pm
a peculiar brand of out of touch.
i don't know exactly what i think of my last entry. but i guess that's all right.
i haven't watched more than ten minutes of tv this week... my housemate and his gf have been fused to the couch for most of it, watching mindless programming like fifth wheel and street smarts. and there's nothing really wrong with any of that. but it means i have yet to see any of what's going on out there. i haven't been able to sit down and flip between stations trying to find the image that cuts through everything for me. like September eleventh, when finally i saw a shot of one of the planes crashing into the wtc-- a perfect cookie cutter shape for an instant before it all went up in flames. a shot i haven't seen since.
instead, i'm spending my spring break waiting tables, trying to find the energy to see my friends and family, and relearning how to sleep so that i don't wake up fifteen times during the night wondering if it's am or pm and whether it's all right that i'm still dreaming.
i need to nap. my allergies are anything but happy today. maybe if i can sleep for just awhile, i'll feel more like driving up to the cities. or at least less like curling up in a ball and hiding for the rest of the weekend.
i haven't watched more than ten minutes of tv this week... my housemate and his gf have been fused to the couch for most of it, watching mindless programming like fifth wheel and street smarts. and there's nothing really wrong with any of that. but it means i have yet to see any of what's going on out there. i haven't been able to sit down and flip between stations trying to find the image that cuts through everything for me. like September eleventh, when finally i saw a shot of one of the planes crashing into the wtc-- a perfect cookie cutter shape for an instant before it all went up in flames. a shot i haven't seen since.
instead, i'm spending my spring break waiting tables, trying to find the energy to see my friends and family, and relearning how to sleep so that i don't wake up fifteen times during the night wondering if it's am or pm and whether it's all right that i'm still dreaming.
i need to nap. my allergies are anything but happy today. maybe if i can sleep for just awhile, i'll feel more like driving up to the cities. or at least less like curling up in a ball and hiding for the rest of the weekend.