not to say i'm a butterfly.
Mar. 3rd, 2005 03:54 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bryiarrosei've been neglecting my journal shamefully. and my flist to a certain extent as well--glancing at it just to see where everyone's at, but not finding much time to read in-depth. and as much as i want that to change, i'm not sure it will for a while. so there's my first apology to myself and all of you.
it's nearly four in the morning and i'm too awake to sleep, probably due to the fact that i've had more caffeine today than i've had in the past week. i'm cutting back again, because my body tells me i have to. and here's my punishment for not listening. dead tired and unable to sleep.
there's this big anxious ball of energy in me right now, looking ahead to the gig i'm playing at the acadia next weekend and starting to get my bearings again. some of it may have to do with being off straterra for the moment, i couldn't say for sure. but i'm starting to see the puzzle pieces and how i make them fit. how i do what i want to. to use a ridiculous metaphor, i'm waiting for my wings. nearly out of the cocoon but not to the letting them dry stage yet. something tells me that things are about to get interesting. and while a large portion of me is scared to death, the rest just can't wait.
it's nearly four in the morning and i'm too awake to sleep, probably due to the fact that i've had more caffeine today than i've had in the past week. i'm cutting back again, because my body tells me i have to. and here's my punishment for not listening. dead tired and unable to sleep.
there's this big anxious ball of energy in me right now, looking ahead to the gig i'm playing at the acadia next weekend and starting to get my bearings again. some of it may have to do with being off straterra for the moment, i couldn't say for sure. but i'm starting to see the puzzle pieces and how i make them fit. how i do what i want to. to use a ridiculous metaphor, i'm waiting for my wings. nearly out of the cocoon but not to the letting them dry stage yet. something tells me that things are about to get interesting. and while a large portion of me is scared to death, the rest just can't wait.
