lodestar

being pulled in three directions at once,
is something i'd hoped to never have to live through again.
the worst thing is not knowing which way you should go
or which you want to. really.

spin + spin + spin

sometimes when i write songs, i wonder where they've come from.
not often, but sometimes.
and then very rarely there are the ones that write themselves
and give me no say in the matter.
and it's not usually that they're too honest. i have a way of writing those for myself.
still though, i fight with them.

the one that just jumped onto the page, and consequently into my minidisc, i definitely wrote myself
and i guess it's that it's simple, and long ranging
and unlike the style i've been writing in for a bit.
but then again, that's been variable too.

it's strange sometimes how words come together
and say exactly what you mean, even though it's not what you meant to say.

i have too much work tonight. so why am i writing music?
oh wait, it's me. nevermind.