wanna be better. now.

still sick.
worst part is, it's the kind of sick that numbs your brain and makes nearly all thought impossible.
never mind that i was already behind in my work and desperately needed this weekend to catch up. if i get through even a third of what i'm supposed to have done for tomorrow it will be a miracle.
it's been so long since i've been sick like this. it really makes me feel out of control.
perhaps i used to cling to that, but now, i just plain hate it.