the word from kifa.

evan's coming home.

( what i woke up to today )

in some ways i'm terribly relieved. and yet i feel a bit guilty for feeling that way.
it will be good to know he's home and safe and closer to where i am. even if it's still a long ways away and i won't get to see him like i wish i could.
but i know what he's been doing is important. important to him and in the greater scheme of things. yes, i think the peace corps is important. but (selfishly) evan is more important to me.
and so i feel just slightly guilty that i'd rather have him home.
but i trust his judgment, and from the little bits he's emailed, this feels like a progression that doesn't have a definite end.
he's been so passionate about this experience-- even when it's been a struggle.
my heart goes out to him today for making what i know must be a very difficult decision.

trigger

even then i was so young.
and here i go, living every day.
pushing my way through. knowing.
learning.
tell me. someone.
are there really any answers
for questions
like this?