i love you so dearly i love you so clearly

it's my kind of spring out. not quite there yet, but with that promise of possibility. like things are just waiting to take off and be beautiful. somehow that feels a lot like life to me. and today i don't care whether that's good or not. i like it. i bought blue morning glory seeds to plant around the mailbox-- blue because they'll match the house. someday, i'll have a real garden.

i crashed last night at 11:30, and woke up this morning at quarter to eight, no alarms no nothing. good restful sleep for once. finally. i've actually been productive today. did lots of dishes, cleaned up a little. talked powerbook prices with my dad?
although it seems strange and far-fetched in the reality department, he's actually kind of been talking like he'd help me buy a new computer. not that jezebel isn't a good computer (yes, i finally named my computer), but she has her issues. she's great-- when she's working and not crashing. but i wouldn't turn down a brand-new totally reliable g4 if it's offered. can't quite see my current one making it through the rest of college without drama of some kind. but anyhow. my dad's also talking about _finally_ getting the radio in my car switched and letting me come get my haircut when he is tomorrow so we'll see how many of all of those happen. i'm of the opinion that he still owes me presents for christmas (the radio) and birthday (?) so.

time to go eat quick before work. i'll tell more stories later.
and if you're minervacat and you try calling while i'm still at work, leave a message and i'll call you back as soon as i'm done. tired of this working, but until people start paying me to play music all the time or sleep i guess i have to.

it's been that kind of night.

so i walk into my room, turn on the light, and the second bulb blows out.
the second bulb in a week. the second and last.
the reason i hadn't switched the first one yet, is because even when i put the step stool on my bed and balance really terribly carefully, i can only just barely reach the fixture but can't tell how to take it off. that and the fact that turning off the light so it's cool enough to touch makes it so close to dark that you can't see to figure out how to get the damn globe off the thing. so now i'm reduced to my little lights, my night lights, ambient lighting. at least until i find a tall person or a real ladder.
now i really am living in a cave.

i'm tired. it's not even midnight. this is why i don't get up early. i remember now.