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so. classes. will be alright. as long as i can stop zoning out in am lit and senior seminar.

especially since they're taught by the same prof.

started yoga today. my abs are not terribly happy with me. but that's a good thing right?

i have to take out another loan beyond my financial aid. which covers school, but not living. so i need another $6000 or so. this does not make me happy. in fact it makes me stressed.

i'm trying to get to chicago this weekend. at the moment i have to be back sunday afternoon. i'm trying to see how late i can push that back. almejor, when were you planning to come back? and if i come can i maybe ride with you?

my head is too full. i want to come to chicago and hang out with everyone and see minervacat and zennerthanyou and get the hell out of northfield for the first time since spring break. (all i ever seem to do is make whirlwind trips to chicago. funny that.)

they're supposed to come hook up my cable modem tuesday morning. i get the modem, the installation and the first two months free. this, is a very good thing. not only am i not having to pay tons of money, but i will also no longer be cut off from the world for long periods of time.

i'm at work at the scic right now. we were watching two towers, but the boy with the dvd went home before faramir showed up. boo.

don't want to read about the sublime in america.

i think that's all for now.

incoherent babbling

i'm exhausted. i suppose this week is a good enough reason why. but still. i don't like it.

i'm not doing very well with getting to sleep early, mostly because i don't fall asleep when i do try. which isn't terribly often.

i am trying to eat better. and have hardly any caffiene. both of those at least are going relatively well. but my body isn't being very forgiving today about yesterday's yoga. sore and tired are more like it. my abs in particular are killing me. good sign? bad sign?

i have to track someone down and find out what time i would have to be back on sunday and whether going to chicago will work. so far i haven't had any luck... by phone, email, or checking the cmc and the libe. hmm.
part of me says i'd be better off staying here. sleeping, catching up on the work i couldn't do earlier this week because i didn't have my books. things like that. not having to worry about what time i make it back. but i know going would be best for me. i know if i stay here i'm going to be lonely this weekend. no matter what. i just haven't mastered the knack of not being lonely yet. something.

i have to go read for american lit. puritans et al. i don't want to. i want to go home and read harry potter. or sleep. or something. but i have to do this reading. suppose i'll go to the libe, have another look for m. and try to read a bit. i suppose it could be worse. i could be trying to wrap my head around my reading on the sublime in america.

will i fall asleep if i try and read at the libe?

i saw a commercial for the school of rock, the new jack black movie coming out. want to go. add another to the list of movies i need to see and haven't. so behind.

also, the new G5s they have in the mac lab are lovely. so fast and so shiny.

my free will for the week suggested rather strongly that i need to have my mind blown. perhaps that would fix everything.