i wish i knew
Mar. 27th, 2003 12:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bryiarrosei'm tired.
my dad did his usual thing and now isn't sure and doesn't want to rush into anything and is checking ebay and i don't even know what. all of that is why i was hesitant to believe he was serious in the first place. but then i went and got serious, and he went and did what i knew he would, and now i'm tired. it still sounds like perhaps a computer may come my way at some point, but he also was going to put a new stereo in my car at christmas and i finally went and bought one at the junkyard and switched it myself today. so.
i love him. he's great. he's the best dad. really. but i'm frustrated. he tells me 'you can always buy a computer.' but i can't always buy a computer. even with the financial aid i'm getting right now i'm barely getting rent/bills/food paid for. and by the time i'm done with the rest of college that i'm paying for, i'm going to be more than thirty thousand in debt with a credit rating that's shot to hell.
i'm sorry. i'm bitching. i'm frustrated.
i should clean my room, but i think maybe i'm going to sleep instead.
my loans had better have cleared for spring term so that they can give me my check Friday. otherwise it's going to be interesting trying to pay rent and buy books next week.
wish there was someone here to hug.
it'll be so good to get out on the road and just drive.
drive away from everything.
my dad did his usual thing and now isn't sure and doesn't want to rush into anything and is checking ebay and i don't even know what. all of that is why i was hesitant to believe he was serious in the first place. but then i went and got serious, and he went and did what i knew he would, and now i'm tired. it still sounds like perhaps a computer may come my way at some point, but he also was going to put a new stereo in my car at christmas and i finally went and bought one at the junkyard and switched it myself today. so.
i love him. he's great. he's the best dad. really. but i'm frustrated. he tells me 'you can always buy a computer.' but i can't always buy a computer. even with the financial aid i'm getting right now i'm barely getting rent/bills/food paid for. and by the time i'm done with the rest of college that i'm paying for, i'm going to be more than thirty thousand in debt with a credit rating that's shot to hell.
i'm sorry. i'm bitching. i'm frustrated.
i should clean my room, but i think maybe i'm going to sleep instead.
my loans had better have cleared for spring term so that they can give me my check Friday. otherwise it's going to be interesting trying to pay rent and buy books next week.
wish there was someone here to hug.
it'll be so good to get out on the road and just drive.
drive away from everything.
